Stunned

I just went and talked to my math instructor. I'm riding the wave between a D+ and a C-. I took the course pass fail, and I need a C- to pass, and I need this class to graduate. He hasn't curved the course grades yet, so there's some hope; apparently the quizzes, which he thought were going to bring up grades, were much lower than he thought they were going to be, and the final exam smacked a lot of people around. That means there's hope, but I'm more than ten points away from a C- on a four hundred point grading scale; the hope may be less powerful than reality in this case.

I might not graduate. I'm absolutely stunned.

The cons?

Taking more than five years to graduate with a history degree

Being berated by my mother, who coincidentally never went to college and dropped the only course in high school that she ever got a D in

Paying my hard earned summer wages toward tuition and fees so that I can sit in a hot classroom every morning relearning the same crap I already learned this term and spewing it back out onto more test and quiz sheets

Holds me up on my plan to return to my old job in England and make some money

The pros?

Gives me another excuse to take Arabic over the summer

Gets me on campus every day, which could, but probably won't encourage a regular workout plan

I'm really having a hard time handling this one. If I were a regular college student, I'd be at the pub right now, instead of whining on the Internet.